Well, I can't fall asleep and I'm losin' my mind 'Cause it's half-past three and my brain's on fire I've been countin' sheep, but the sheep all died And I'm not dead yet, so I guess I'll be alright... AJR – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4RTnoFH1rY Song that is currently the anthem of my state of mind 8D
Uuuuuuhh....Hi. Oh look, username change yet again. Going nearly full circle. ANYWAY I am not dead. A, um... rather important distinction to make in this day and age. Long story short(ish), when things went to hell in a hand-basket early last year...at first my naive little brain thought something hopeful like; “Well this is interesting. But this is a universal, undiscriminating threat. I'm sure everyone will take it seriously and it will be okay.” Well, viruses suck, and people suck (the latter is a rant I could make pages out of, but I'll spare you). It was not okay, obviously it didn't become okay, and I was not okay. And I found out what my brain/body will do to me when fight-or-flight kicks in hard against something you can neither fight nor run from in the first place. No, I don't work in a super high-risk environment (I have an extreme amount of respect and empathy for those that did/do, whether by choice or no choice). By all accounts I am very lucky to work and live where I do and with who I do. But the breakdown happened anyway, and it was a lot to deal with. After a few talks with a doctor and getting medication I got better, but only so far as “survival mode”. Go to work, take precautions everywhere, go home and find ways to decompress/cope, repeat.
That's how I carried on for the rest of the year and into the start of this one. Really moving beyond that didn't start until around...February or maybe March. Although I didn't get the vax until April.
People here were on my mind, as well. Hoping you were faring better than I was, or if not, that you'd find a way to muddle through, too. And of course hoping that no one fell victim to covid itself. I wasn't absent from visiting this site, just not active. Those of you who kept up with your creativity, even a little, major kudos. If you didn't, major kudos anyway. We're all going through the dumpster fire as best we can.
Now late into 2021 I'm...alright. As I can be for now. Even if things are only marginally improved nation- and world-wide. I could/can finally get back to my hobbies like art and actually focus on and enjoy them. I'm afraid I haven't practiced/improved any during my nearly two-year hiatus, but I'll take what I can get.
So...there you have it. ^^; Can't say I'm thrilled with DA's new layout, but I'm back and sticking around (and really hoping I'm not jinxing anything by being even slightly optimistic again ahahaha). Starting off with Drawtober, which I have a decent heard-start on. So you'll see that very soon! Well, to those reading/seeing this, hey, let me know how you're doing. Stay safe, wear a freakin' mask, get vaxxed (if you're medically able) and be kind. ♥